tired.

Jus came back from KL..
Indon was fun.. VERY actually. i miss my cousins all.
i miss ALL of em at indon n citi. if onli citi follow will b much more fun..
everything at indon was fun.
den off to KL n Melacca.
everything was worst.

my last nite at melacca turns out to b a nitemare.
left ma bag at KFC aft eatin at JUSCO melacca.
wen i reach nek cu(my grandma) home den i realize.
panicked, dad was shouting, askin me wad i had in ma bag,
told him cammy,ezlink n hp. dad was shouting2 lyk fook.
nek cu told dad to try n go bck dere to check if my bag was still dere.
i had this feeling tat my bag was still dere, d manager kept it.
i sumhw had tat strong,VERY strong feeling tat she kept it.
wen ma dad was away, i took 8panadols. i was too fcked up w maslv.
i dint noe y i took it. all i noe is i dunwan to b nagged by ma dad.
n i still had 8 more in ma pockets. i kept it cuz i was being followed by ma bro n sis.
dey shouted askin fer me to give it to em.
n i shouted, vulgarities was obviously out of ma mouth while screaming.
n wen i scream, it wasnt ma voice. yepp. it wasnt.
ma nek cu,nek yam n ma sibs was like "dier kene rasuk pe!"
n i was like "fcuk u ppl!! rembat aku la sial! aku cabar korg"
tho it was me sayin it, but i like d voice. u noe those kinda demon voice.
yeahh. my dad reached home, n he asked me y i cried, n my sis
said to ma dad, i kicked her, n deres 8pills in ma pocket n i was screamin.
becomin hysterical fer nuthin. i was stupid? yeahh. oh well..
n so, ma dad kicked me.. punched me in d fckin face.
i dint cry. seriously. cuz i was alredy too used to being whacked by my dad.
my routine, every mth being whacked by him.
dad pulled my hair lyk fook n dragged me out of d kampung to bring me
bhind nek cu's house, cuz it was pitch black n dad pushed me to go in dere alone to mit
those demons, he called them 'ma frens'.
oh well, i like it. i always wanted to b frenz w em. seriousely. since a kid.
n i dint went in, i was too afraid, fook siak. i mean like,
everthing,around u is like trees EVRYWHERE. cb sia~
but i dint freak out ahh. i just stand dere, walked in slowly..
n den just stand dere, den dad called me back to go into d house.
den he pulled my hair,kicked me again, nek cu was protecting me,
nek cu was crying screaming lyk this "da la mat! kau ni,asek2 nak pukol zerah knp..
asik2 nak bunoh anak kau sndri!"
nek cu kept pulling me bhind her, but i kept wanting to stand infront of her,
cuz i wanted,yep, i do want to b whacked by my dad. it dint hurt.
dad tooked a knife, wanted to kill me.. but nek cu prevent. but i wanted to.
i stand infront, but nek cu prevent again. =___=
whatever. dint slept n dad shouted "tk tawu tdo pe!!"
n so i just lye on d floor but then due to crying, i was sleepy.
so slept.. blah3, skip everything..